Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Indeed Good!

Last week I had begun reading the Bronze Bow by Elizabeth George Speare. (Ages 6th grade up) I finished it last night. It is a remarkable book and I could see it would make a wonderful spring board as a whole study on the ministry of Christ. I would like to read this book again and interweave the life of Christ through the eyes of John with it.
How often Jesus brings me back over and over to Love. And how often I do not Love like I should. The central message of the Bronze Bow is that.
What a totally lovely book!

Friday, May 22, 2009

How Powerful This Is!

John 8:51-59

Most assuredly, I say to you, if anyone keeps My word he shall never see death.
Then the Jews said to Him, "Now we know that You have a demon! Abraham is dead, and the prophets; and You say, 'If anyone keeps My word he shall never taste death.'
Are You greater than our father Abraham, who is dead? And the prophets are dead. Who do You make Yourself out to be?
Jesus answered, "If I honor Myself, My honor is nothing. It is My Father who honors Me, of whom you say that He is your God.
Yet you have not known Him, but I know Him. And if I say, 'I do not know Him,' I shall be a liar like you; but I do know Him and keep His word.
Your father Abraham rejoiced to see My day, and he saw it and was glad.
Then the Jews said to Him, "You are not yet fifty years old, and have You seen Abraham?"
Jesus said to them, "Most assuredly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I AM."
Then they took up stones to throw at Him; but Jesus hid Himself and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by.

What an incredible conversation and what incredible action!

I am reading a children's book right now that I have had on my shelf waiting to be read for about 2 years and here I am down towards the bottom of my 'to read pile' where it has been waiting. It won the Newbery Award in 1962 in an age in America that was still a very Christian time. I don't think it would get the same award now, but none the less, Elizabeth George Speare, writer of the Bronze Bow has made the life of Christ real enough...and the above quotation from the bible has haunted me all week because it fits so much into the dialogue of the story as well as being so very powerful in its own right.
This has been a week of slowing down. Much of it was related to a leg that was so sore that I could hardly function with swelling behind my knee (Baker's Cyst) and along my ankle. I have been going to a foot doctor in Taos, thinking that with such problems I had better start at my foot and move up towards the knee, dreading a knee replacement. Turns out that the swelling in my ankle that I attributed to a falling arch (O! The traumas of advancing age) was an inflamed tendon. A shot of cortisone has cured not only my foot but also my knee. Thanks be to God. What a miracle that is!!! What a remarkable thing to be pain free.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Mull This With A Cup Of Tea

This morning my Mother and I were headed for Denver to visit my sister. I have had kind of a growly stomach the last few days and not much seems appetizing. My sister called and said she didn't feel great either, so we decided to lay low for now and connect a little later. My Mother is still abed so she probably is enjoying not having to leap up and get in the car to go.

This is a good example of the day not being what you had in mind...and actually, though I miss not seeing my sister, there is a great sense of peace in the day that hadn't been there before. A day to be still. Perhaps...

I wrote to a friend who is having trouble getting a book going...the flow of that conversation that came out in the email seems like a good program if one is stuck by time strictures and not quite knowing direction. As I looked over this I thought I would like to do this too.

I am working on a story that is a young adult novel. I have been working on it for about 4-5 years now (only) and think I know its path, but it does seem to have a life of its own. I would really like it to have its own life and see where it goes.

I am thinking it would be a good way to get back into the story. The other things that I have been working on are on the shelf or almost so.

1.Picture book The Tumbled Stone has gone to the printer
2. CD project, Abbess Thaisia - editing almost finished

Here is the plan.

On your book. Count out the right number of pages with computer paper (32) (staple them together so they stay put.. then...write on your book page by page - what you already have... If it is a picture book then really all you need is one thing..text..long or short for every two pages as illustration might cover one of those pages or both. Use a printed book of your children's to get the layout. Doesn't matter which one you pick just use the first one that surfaces. ie page 1 title, page 2 credits, page 3 dedication or info...Page 4 now you begin the story.
Open your book to the part that you want to start on and pray and think about that page all day. Maybe keep a note pad in your purse/pocket/car (in this case a children's picture book) Then after you put the children (or?) to bed. Write down what you thought about that page that seemed good. Don't worry if it doesn't make sense. Just write it down and the next day pick up the next page and pray/think what should be on it. And keep going don't stop until you get to 32 pages. "Your story may change as you go along and not be the story that you originally intended. That is OK. God is helping you write it. See where He wants you to go. It is really a wonderful game that He will play with you. Who could be a better friend!! Doesn't even matter if it isn't great. You will have a great time doing it. Forget about making it important or REALLY meaningful. Just do it.

So I will leave you too with this thought. Where would you go with it?

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


Fr. John, talked about doubt these last two Sundays.

The first sermon was about doubt. A) The doubt that confronts one ie: not being sure about something. (Taking more time and research to understand.) B) The doubt that is double-mindedness. He gave the example of Peter asking Jesus to tell him (Peter) to come to Him, as Jesus walked on the water. Peter started out and he was doing fine, only to 'doubt' and sink.

The second sermon reiterated his summation of doubt. I was glad that Fr. John did that, as I had forgotten that was his original premise in the previous sermon.

I find that usually after Pascha, I am somehow waiting for direction, what is next. It seems a new beginning. So often I have ideas that I am dwelling upon, paths to take, choices to make that seem after Pascha to be unanswered. I guess I feel that I should immediately know a firm direction after the Resurrection. I forget that His disciples didn't know what was next until the coming of the Holy Spirit at Pentecost.

I find the second state, double-minded doubt to be often part of making a decision. I start out with an idea that usually is a change in direction, and then the opposite comes into the picture and I can't decide between the two and am in a state of confusion. I often think that the new thought is the better idea of the two that war against each other. My Mother pointed out that perhaps the second thought, maintaining the status quo, is the better of the two.

Don't know if you have that confusion? Perhaps both are the true path, this and that?

At any rate I thought...God is faithful. He will convict me of what he wants of me.

Faith, confidence in God's plan is the erasing of doubt. Also what an interesting thought to... hyper me...this is a time to sit and be still.